..13 going 30..

Posted by : AfiqahAR | 04 December 2009 | Published in

firstly, I'm going to post this in English as it's been quite a long time I don't post in English.
secondly, I'm not going to post about the film as people already knew about the plot and the romantic-ness of the story. *winkwink*

the film reminds me of my past.
where I made "mistakes", but I know, nothing in this world will able to change that.

back in year 2001.
when I was young.
when I was 12.
when I was in Form 1.
when I studied at High School Bukit Mertajam.
when I was in the same class with him.

at first I thought he was Muslim.
when our class teacher asked to introduce ourselves, he told us that his name was Shaun P.
i was a little bit frustrated (because I started to fall for him on the first sight).
his first introduction had made me laugh.
he's a funny guy. I like funny guys since I'm not.

in class, he sat far from my seat (3 rows gap I think).
I sat at the front beside the class door.
it was easy to watch him entered and went out class. lol.

I am a good peep-er. seriously, I am really good at it.
he would never know that I crushed on him.

at one time, he sat at the last back row.
it was really hard to peek on him.
but I had a good Chinese friend, sat right behind me.
so, you guys know what I did to keep looking at him. lol.

at one time, he sat right behind me (at my best buddie's place).
I experienced goosebumps, butterflies in my stomach.
I could not sit properly.
guess what I felt that time?
over-EXCITED and over-ANNOYED.
why? let me tell you one secret.

when I fall for someone, I don't like him to be around or near me.
but I craved to look at him from far.
and if I'm really comfortable with one guy, I don't have any heart feeling on him.
it's just a friendship.
when I fall for someone, I hardly stare into his eyes when talk to him.
or worst, I will never talk to him or approach him.
I will wait forever until he approach me first.

.... and that was the "mistake" I made when I was in Form 2.

back in year 2002.
when I was young.
when I was 13.
when I was in Form 2.
when I studied at High School Bukit Mertajam.
when I was not in the same class with him.

he was in the second class.
he was good in school. I like intelligent guys since I'm not.
I was in the third class.
our classes were next to each other.
unfortunately, we never combined class since the second class combined with the first and the third combined with the fourth.

when we were in Form 2, I noticed he started to realize my existence.
sometimes, his friends would make fun on him when I passed by.
sometimes, he stared at me when I ate at the canteen.
sometimes, he looked at the surau on Friday when Muslim guys went to mosque to do the prayer.
sometimes, he passed by my class and looked in.
sometimes, he looked at me before went into the school van when school finished.

.... but I will never forget the two best two days that had happened in my life.

Day 1st:
the bell rang.
everybody rushed out of class.
I was a little bit slow since I had a tie-the string-first-then-join-the-clip bag (I tried Google it but fail).
when I finished pack up, I went out and walked along the corridor when suddenly I saw him.
I saw him, standing at the end of the corridor, right besides the stairs (my class was in the 3rd floor).
as I wrote earlier, I pretended not to see him and started to walk down the stairs.
unexpectedly, he followed me walked down the stairs.
once again, I felt over-EXCITED and over-ANNOYED.
I slowed down my pace, he slowed down.
I fastened my pace, he fastened.
and lastly, I walked down as fast as I could and he gave up.
I succeeded to pass him. congratulate me for that.
and we had not talk along walking down the stairs.
double congratulate me.

Day 2nd (the next day):
the bell rang.
everybody rushed out of class.
I was a little bit slow since I had a tie-the string-first-then-join-the-clip bag (I tried Google it but fail).
I noticed someone passed my class.
I glanced outside.
it was him.
he went to the left side of the corridor (from my class view).
after finished pack up, I went to the right side of the corridor.
once again, as I wrote earlier, I love to watch him from far.
when I reached the stairs, I glanced back to check whether he was there, on the other side of corridor, or not.
he was. and he was walking toward me (or precisely, toward my side).
as I saw him, I started to walk away. fast. like I did yesterday.
yes. triple congratulate me.

the moral of the story is when you have the chance to do what you intended, just do.
because, we will never turn back time.
when we are 20, we will never going 13.


Pikalicious said: there is someone I crush right now. there is someone that replaces Shaun P. the feelings are same with the feelings towards Shaun P. and I still do the "mistakes". because I never think I am pretty. I think I am hideous. people do not like hideous thing. and to him, please change my principle. thanks. x)

(7) Comments

  1. Anak Rashid Kacak said...

    he would never know that I crushed on him.

    December 4, 2009 at 2:56 AM
  2. hans said...

    mamat yg ko cerita dkt aku tu dkt fb kan?
    dkt fb pun xjumpa ke?

    December 4, 2009 at 3:01 PM
  3. Anak Rashid Kacak said...

    ha? dkt FB?
    aku dh lost contact lh dgn dia.
    haish.

    December 4, 2009 at 3:30 PM
  4. hans said...

    hang search la nama dia dkt fb tgok
    kut2 jumpa
    aku banyak orang dah aku jumpa wat cara tu

    December 4, 2009 at 5:54 PM
  5. Anak Rashid Kacak said...

    ntah ah.
    kalau jumpa pun, aku maw buat apa?
    hahahah.

    December 4, 2009 at 8:20 PM
  6. mira hana said...

    shaun tu pakai spec and mix ke? :p

    December 8, 2009 at 1:48 AM
  7. Pikaliciou5 said...

    yup.
    jangan kata dia masuk MMU?!

    December 8, 2009 at 11:51 AM
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