Posted by : AfiqahAR | 18 May 2010 | Published in

Hi creatures.

I almost get what I want all this time. But I have to let it go. It is not my decision actually. It is a mother's. Why she likes to make it so hard? When her answer is no, it IS a no. Nothing will change her. My life is controlled by a mother although I am 21.

When I did something, she does not see it. When she did something, she wants me to see it. I may not be the best daughter in the world, but you should thank God to have me as your daughter.
But it will never change my love for you. You are still my mother.

Sometimes, I hate to have a stepfather. He will change the mother. and IT CHANGES THE WHOLE LIFE!

My father is so far. I mean REAL far. I will never be able to reach him by using my hand from where I stand. He created lots of problems. And now he faces extras problems from the problems he created years ago and affect me as a child.

I do not get money from anyone. He stopped sending me money 3 months ago. I have to listen a lecture to get money from her. And what I have is my loan that I have to pay when I finish study one day. I have two brothers and two sisters but I do not get any money from them neither.

I'm broke. I have RM170 in my account. RM100 in another account which I get from what I did. RM50 in another account for a condition to setup a new bank account. RM50 left from what he sent to me 3 months ago in another account. RM100 in wallet. And that is it. No more money.

I want to join the FML community. Voluntary.

Bye creatures.

(5) Comments

  1. Makhluk Tuhan Paling Suci said...

    I have a hard life. You should appreciate yours.

    May 18, 2010 at 10:25 PM
  2. Miss Wanie said...

    Some people blames their fate, but this is what we called qada and qadar. Because God loves u, He sends the hardship to test your iman and patience. U know, you can learned so much from it.

    You will learn how to appreciate everything u had around u. Yeah I agree that in your current situation, money is ur matter. For food, try to cook. From my exprience, RM30 is enough to live about 3 weeks.
    *Have to forget kejap la KFC, Mekdi etc....

    Me too, have my own debt to MARA about 40k AND I have to settle it on my own after I have finish my study. You have to proud of your own self for standing at this level. And plus, I never ask any ringgit from my mom, I used wisely from the loan I gain every month.

    And from here, you have proven to her that U can stand on ur own feet that you are all grown up.

    Actually, ur situation kinda related to mine and I extremely understand how was ur feeling rite now. Do something for ur own living, get rid of those shackle. I told u this because it works to me. Try it babe..

    p/s : Berjela-jela aku mengarang, kalau x paham, KAU MEMANG!!

    May 19, 2010 at 2:10 AM
  3. Makhluk Tuhan Paling Suci said...

    tengs Farah. your berjela-jela-karangan really helps me!
    nanti share tips on how to berjimat ok? sebab I AM BOROS.
    maybe itu yang membuatkan saya tiada duit. auwwwwwwwwww! T.T

    May 19, 2010 at 2:12 AM
  4. Miss Wanie said...

    ang mintak tips dr si pemboros juga ke?

    tp takpe.. i can share :) mmg sakitlah wehhhh nak kurangkan pemborosan ni


    May 19, 2010 at 2:17 AM
  5. Makhluk Tuhan Paling Suci said...

    HAHA. tahu takpa. T.T

    May 19, 2010 at 2:17 AM
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